Monday, April 23, 2007
Confessions...
I have a confession to make. I've been putting off writing on my blog because I did not do well last week. I'm now forcing myself to admit it. Monday and Tuesday I felt like I did good, but I didn't eat nearly enough (only about half of what I should have eaten), so by Wednesday I was ravenous even though I hadn't felt hungry on Monday or Tuesday and I ate too much. Then since then I've just been eating all kinds of crap. I know you guys are probably tired of hearing me whine about not doing good. I didn't want to write this because I don't want you to think, "Oh gosh, there she goes again. She's not going to last for long with CRON." I really want to do it because I know how good I feel and I'm excited about life and I want to be here a long time because there's so much I want to do to help people. The addictions to sugar and fat and salt are just so strong sometimes. I'm really frustrated with myself because I feel like a failure. I KNOW food won't make me happy and I'll just feel depressed after I eat it, so why do I do it? I don't understand, but it's got to come to a stop. I wish we were made so that we didn't eat. Then life would be so much easier.
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No, there would only be something else that we would spend too much time thinking about! :-)
It's a journey and you will end up in the right place, but it will take time. You can't expect to sever all ties with foods you've eaten in the past (that you now know are not good for you) in one fell swoop. It's just not possible. And you've got school and your studies and those things, fuelling your mind and your intellect, are just as important as fuelling your body. to live healthily.
One day at a time. One less crappy piece of food a day is one day closer to a day without any crappy food at all, and then another, and then another, and then a lifetime.
And less beating yourself up!
Everything Sara said..
Time is on your side, there's no race, no rush.. the longer it takes to sink in, the longer it stays put and becomes part of your psyche.
:-D
I think all of us deal with those things, wanting to do what we do perfectly first time out. But habits don't change overnight, especially eating habits. Maybe you can relate to Hazel's blog, I think she's dealing with this kind of issue by allowing herself a little bit of non-optimal food every day. By labeling some food "bad", it makes it more attractive, and makes your psyche more defiant. Labeling less than wonderful things as "not the best for me" might help. And allow yourself to have some of those things.
True story: While I was a personal trainer, I had a client with a terrible ice cream habit. Finally, I told the client he had to have ice cream every Friday, Saturday and Sunday. Must. A "Rule". Sure enough after about three weeks of this, he called me at home on a Saturday night, "Please tell me I really don't have to have the ice cream. I don't want it tonight."
It's okay. It's a process and all of us are challenged by this lifestyle at some point I think, and even when you think it is all under control, sometimes the body has a mind of its own.
Just do the best you can in the moment and try to work out how to manage things better. We are always learning and our body is always changing.
And like illiah said, it can help to avoid labelling foods as good or bad. It doesn't work for everyone but maybe incorporating a little of what you crave into your plan. That way you can't feel guilty because it is part of your nutrition plan.
Hope things get better for you soon.
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